break

winter break is over and all in all was was a pretty good time. to me the best part of winter vacation is that it makes it feel like the year is really half over. the only bad thing about this break was that i had to suffer through 3 sundays which means i had to watch the browns lose three games....figures.

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it could be worse i guess

so exited to sleep in everyday for the next two weeks. i'm so tired of getting up for school its so annoying. the only bad thing about winter vacation is the winter part. i have a crappy car so i have to let it warm up for a little bit before i can go anywhere. and i cannot stand being cold. but i guess it could be worse, i could have to wake up early let my car warm up be cold and have to go to school. yeah i'd rather sleep in and chill all day.

Just let it go

Before today i was just going to use a little two paragraph essay i wrote in ten minutes before English last year, but I've decided to write about something a lot more meaningful to me. My life has changed a lot in the last three years. I went from living in a big house with four other people to a small apartment with my little sister and my mom. My parents are divorced now and my relationship with them has changed a lot. I only see my dad 2 weekends a month. He lives with his girlfriend...i don't like her. Ever since my dad left his relationship with me and my older sister has become very strained and awkward, partly due to his girlfriend...who i do not like. my sister who is now 20 years old and  lives with her boyfriend has also had to deal with a lot of problems involving our dad and his girlfriend...she doesn't like her either. she only has bad things to say about him these days and even though he has done a lot of bad things to us i feel like she is just looking for reasons to hold a grudge. she doesn't legally have to visit our dad, so they rarely talk. She never wants to call him and she avoids contact with him as much as she can. The only time i really talk to my dad is the four days a month that im at his house...but most of the time his girlfriend is complaining about something or he's asleep so we don't normally have conversations. There are a lot of things that my dad has said and done to me to make me not want to go to his house but i don't really have a choice. Before today i was just holding a grudge with my dad even though he is not trying to make things better being mad at things he has done in the past will not do me any good. However i actually had a pretty good time tonight, all we did was watch football and play madden 11 with little conversation but I still had fun. In the car on my way back to my moms i was thinking to myself. "Why can't my sister just move on and forgive him?" I've never seen my dad sad before. but i know it hurts him when my sister never visits him. He's done bad things to me too and at times i just want to block him off completely but i know he's my dad and whether i like it or not he's the only one that i will ever have, and there's nothing that i can do to change the things that he has done. I believe that you have to forgive people that you love no matter what they have done to you, . There's nothing that my dad can do to change the things that he has done. But you never get a second chance to live your life, every second that you waste holding a grudge is just another second of happiness that you lose with that person. My dad cannot go back and undo the things that he has done, all i can do is forgive him and move on for the better. My dad has not spoken to my grandfather in many years because of the things that he has done to my dad. And i know he regrets not having a relationship with his father. And for many reasons i can see me and my dad not having any relationship at all when i'm older. I also know that if we have no relationship we will both regret it for the rest of our lives. The only way I can avoid a life of resentment is by living now with a sense of forgiveness and to just let it go.

they won a game? the browns won a game?

its about time the browns won a game. I've been waiting like so long for the browns to win..its about time, maybe things are going to start to turn around for them?...doubts..at least there is one football team in ohio that knows how to win games. but michigan..i hate michigan's football team..but goodness the osu michigan game might actually be a good game. i mean michigan's only test so far this season was indiana but they did pretty good..i think that if they can beat michigan st this weekend the only other team that will have a chance against them is osu.

Michigan football is an awful abomination that begs for apocalypse

i dont understand why everyone thinks that michigan has a good football team because their first four games were against four unbelievably terrible teams. Connecticut Massachusetts Notre Dame and Bowling Green...yeah they really deserve to be ranked. when they beat a team that is actually ranked..or idk good..then i will be convinced...as soon as denard robinson tries to run against ohio state he is going to get destroyed. Why are there so many Pittsburgh steelers fans in ohio? i don't understand. The Cleveland Browns are a mighty fine football team, the fact that they are 0-3 is just not important at all.